One of the most exciting moments of clarity I've had in my Lodge 49 journey was when I got really annoyed by my failure to figure out what Champ was referencing when he talked about the Heart of the Beast in this scene, and mentioned that he read it somewhere but forgot...
So I resumed my heretofore-fruitless google search for "Heart of the Beast", this time scrolling and searching and hugging the turns, until I FOUND IT!
Lo and behold, here is what I found, and as I listened to the hardcore revolutionary communist lyrics (and with the knowledge that this is the sort of wonderful prog rock nonsense that both Champ and Jim Gavin would totally be into), became instantly convinced that I had found the thing that Champ "read" that he forgot:
OK, if you pressed play and switched it off within seconds because it's so hard to listen to, I don't blame you. Like all '60s experimental rock, it's at once the greatest and worst thing you've ever heard. So if you just couldn't stand it but are still curious to know what the eff I'm banging on about, here are the lyrics (still hard work, but I've bolded the most pertinent sections if that helps):
Situation that rules your world (despite all you've said)
I would strike against it but the rule displaces…
There I burn in my own lights fuelled with flags torn out
Of books, and histories of marching together…
United with heroes, we were the rage, the fire
But I was given a different destiny - knotted in closer despair
Calling to heroes do you have to speak that way all the time ?
Tales told by idiots in paperbacks; a play of forms
To spite my fabulous need to fight and live
We exchange words, coins, movements - paralysed in loops
Of care that we hoped could knot a world still
Sere words, toothless, ruined now, bulldozed into brimming pits
- who has used them how? Grammar book that lies wasted :
Conflux of voices rising to meet, and fall
Empty, divided, other…
Clutching at sleeves the wordless man exposes his failure :
Smiling, he hurls a wine glass, describing his sadness twisted
Into mere form: shattered in a glass, he's changed…
Now dare he seize the life before him and discompound it in
Sulphurous confusion and give it to the air?
He's rushing to find where there's a word of liquid syntax
- signs let slip in a flash : "clothes of chaos are my rage !"
He shrieks in tatters, hunting the eye of his own storm
We were born to serve you all our bloody lives
Labouring tongues we give rise to soft lies :
Disguised metaphors that keep us in a vast inverted stillness
Twice edged with fear
Twilight signs decompose us
High in offices we stared into the turning wheel of cities
Dense and ravelled close yet separate: planned to kill all encounter
Intricate we saw your state at work its shapes
Abstracted from all human intent. With our history's fire
We shall harrow your signs
Now is the time to begin to go forward - advance from despair
The darkness of solitary men - who are chained in a market they
Cannot control - in the name of a freedom that hangs like a pall
On our cities. And their towers of silence we shall destroy
Now is the time to begin to determine directions, refuse to admit
The existence of destiny's rule. We shall seize from all heroes and
Merchants our labour, our lives, and our practice of history : this
Our choice, defines the truth of all that we do
Seize on the words that oppose us with alien force; they're enslaved
By the power of capital's kings who reduce them to coinage and
Hollow exchange in the struggle to hold us, they're bitterly
Outlasting… Time to sweep them down from power
- deeds renew words
So, it seemed to me very obvious that I had FOUND THE HEART OF THE BEAST! But, being the stalkerish fan that I am, I decided to ask Jim Gavin about it on Twitter, the only online place he seems to (in)frequent.
Now Jim, like all alchemists and like Harwood Fritz Merrill himself, is always hanging on to a clear desire to reveal all the secrets he holds. But this is always JUST edged out by a slightly stronger desire to enshrine the mysteries, to ensure the magic isn't dispelled by anything tangible or concrete, to wink and nod but never confirm. With this in mind, I was incredibly excited to have him reply to my inquisitive tweet with this photo:
Ah, sweet, sweet validation!
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